Once a saint, Always a saint.
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Not photography related, but still awesome.
Coldplay - Paradise (Peponi) African Style (Piano/Cello) Cover - The Piano Guys ft. Alex Boye (by ThePianoGuys)
Sara Bareilles - Uncharted (by SaraBareillesVEVO)
Unexpected
Looking at how some things are turning out, it really is very unpredictable. I mean, we think somethings will stay constant but they don’t. We shut the door on one thing and another door opens. Both good and bad, I must say. But, I’m optimistic. (Believe it or not, I can’t remember ever using that “o word” in my blog before)
So, just pretending that nothing has turned out for the worse, I’m excited for my relationships with people. It’s amazing how people you know once as become something totally different. For example, a best friend of mine in Secondary 2 is really not much more than a fair-weather friend now. But this opened new doors, new people’s lives and now, I have new best friends. It’s kind of exciting.
I’m also not afraid of going to SAJC anymore. I still rather go to NJC. It’s just that, I’m not PMSing anymore. Haha. School starts in 5 days. I hope to bring so many things to closure and turn a brand new page for this next chapter. Someone famous once said that your friends for life are those you meet in University. I think there are 2 other groups. The first, those that grow up and grow old with you. The second, those that you meet coincidentally and surprise you pleasantly.
Cliche as it is, I’m expecting the unexpected. These are dark times but I know brighter days are ahead.
Most. Horrible. Birthday. Ever.
Worst part is, I just wanted it to be a normal day. Is that even too much to ask?
I just posted 3 hours ago and I’m going to post again. I don’t think anyone actually understands how my feelings co-relate to my brain. I’m getting mind____ed right now and it’s driving me crazy.
I’m mental now. Seriously mental. I can’t even begin to comprehend… I’ve just been mind____ed. I’m nuts. LOL. Feels like I’m having puberty all over again. Hope tomorrow my mental state will be more stable tomorrow. ROAR!
OH MY GOSH
SOMEONE, PLEASE KILL ME IF I DON’T GET INTO NJC. ______ IS GOING TO SAJC. I’M ALREADY SEEING MYSELF AS A LIFE-LONG LOSER.
By the way, does exploding count as “emo”? Because, the answer is technically yes, but it doesn’t seem like the typical “emo”. Anyway…
I NEED A MIRACLE.
Sweet Escape
One and a half hours was how long it took to adjourn to Potong Pasir McDonalds from Kevin’s house. Me staying over at Kevin’s was like a New Yorker spending a few days at Minneapolis-St. Paul. I felt well-rested and was able to take my mind off everything that has happening in my life. So it only felt somewhat metaphoric when I stepped into McDonalds and “Sweet Escape” was playing in the background. I had dinner there while watching How I Met Your Mother. I felt it was the perfect way to end my day. As I walked back home, I passed by my juniors, who just finished their CCAs. I passed by ex-classmates, who were hanging out with their girlfriends. I passed by SAJC girls, who were extremely… I’m a guy. You get what I mean. Clue: “girls”
In my heart, I felt like I really belonged here in SAV. I really want to go to SAJC but then the whole rugby thing comes out and I’m just trying to avoid it. So, the warfare between head and heart begins (again). On one hand, I want to go to NJC because it’s easier to focus on studies and I don’t have to feel pressured to join rugby. On the other, I want to go to SAJC because that’s where most of my friends are and it’s so near my house. Oh yes, waking up at 7.15am on a school day is a beautiful privilege. NJC feels like a route for me to escape from my past. It feels fresh but yet, I’m a sentimental weeny. I find it so hard to let go and run away. I guess what’s done is done and everything else is up to God.
This battle between the head and the heart is always so confusing, especially when something like which JC I want to go to will become so insignificant in 20 years’ time. In the end, the heart always wins but the head’s always right. The sweet escape would be to run away from this head-heart thing.
By the way, How I Met Your Mother is legendary. Seriously. I feel like a relationship expert now. (not really)
2012 Official Start
It’s official. 2012 starts on 31st January for me. I’m going to spend the next 2 weeks reflecting, planing and setting targets for 2012. One of things that has been tugging my heart is a strong desire for more philia in 2012. After all, it’s the only human form of love that I’ve learnt to depend on.
Can’t wait for CNY. Can’t wait for school to start. I’m excited about the future!
